Saturday, 29 June 2013

At a crossroads...

In the last month we were notified at work that we would be made redundant sometime in the next 12 months. It's not been a shock as such as we've been expecting it for the last 2 years. What's been so frustrating has been the lack of information in regards to a timeline. 12 months is a long time to put your life on hold knowing you're about to lose your job after 23 years.

But this has now made me stop and analyse my life and where it is I want to go and what I want to do.
One thing that has held me in the same job for so long is that fact I love my work... graphic arts allows me to be creative. I have to admit that the shit that goes along with a newspaper like deadlines I'm going to be glad to see gone.

Career-wise I have some ideas. I'd like to find a nice part time job and I'd like to do some graphic arts work on the side from home. It sounds almost ideal for me, so fingers crossed that is what happens.
I'm hoping that way it'll lead to a lot less stress and more time for me and the kids.

Personally I've been struggling. With all the stress and uncertainty of the redundancy I've stopped a taken a good long look at things.
I keep telling Nicholas not to spread himself too thin and try to do too much, and I've been doing exactly that thing. So what am I going to do about it...

Well the big one is to take back control of my life.
For the last 6-12 months I've just been stumbling from one crisis to the next one. Life just keeps getting in the way. As much as I've tried to put a routine into place it just doesn't work... I'm thinking of that spreading thin thing again... too much to do and no time so none of it gets done!

I've had no inspiration to scrap, I've done very little with the family history, let alone do the cross stitch Mum asked me to do for her. The only thing I've been doing is reading, but that's because it requires no effort, and lets me escape for a few hours.
I love all of these things and don't want to give them up, but I'm really going to have to work out how to balance it all... I keep thinking I will get time soon to do them and maybe I will.

Another one of my considerations has been this blog. Should I keep it going or should I stop blogging. Do you really still want to continue to see my work here? I feel like I let everyone down when I don't blog for months and I get dragged down with it.
Is it worth continuing here or maybe making a totally fresh start?
Something more simple?
Let me know your thoughts...

and thanks for listening to me venting ideas.... maybe this will be the encouragement I need to starting putting things into order and getting my life back!